2005 Ravenback City Awards: Award

Instinctivly going to fluff her tutu she realised she wasn't wearing
it, and her shimmery pink boy shorts underwear that read Tuesday when it was well into Saturday, were exposed. She blushes hott pink in the cheeks and looked around nervously for her tutu. She spotted
it....damn that Ophelia....ah well, she would retrieve it later and hope no one noticed behind the podium Jauk was tutu-less.*

Ahem...excuse me, can I have everyones attention. It seems like there are some things I must address. I've taken some notes and will
address each matter one by one.

1) I have gone out of my way to make this awards show fair, open to
all (save for 3 previously banned vampires), unbiased, fun, and
entertaining. I have asked for the help and support from at least one
vampire in every clan I knew, and then a few vampires that weren't
alligned any certain way. Some said no, others jumped at the chance. Ask any of the presentors...many of them did not even know me before this event. During the nominations many asked me about numbers, they wanted to know who had more votes, how many times they were nominated, etc etc. Actually it was Capadocious that came to me withall of those questions and I didn't think anything of telling him. After the third vampire came to me I started to think about it, and desided from then on NO ONE would know about numbers but me. Ask Shining Host....I wouldn't tell him and I talk to him all the time. I
can't think of anyone else I refused numbers too at this time. I
announced some Sneek Peeks here and there, but that was it. When I created the polls, the only folks that knew the numbers were my
sherrifs here at The Roost: Melkya, Kreacher, sealioness, Autumnfq,
and myself. Sherrifs are always able to see numbers for polls, they
are given a key to almost everything when they accept the duty. For
this reason I only allowed my most trusted friends have a key of
authority. None of us gave out information to alter votes.

Information about the votes WERE given out. Yes, it is true. I told
numbers to vampires. I told Moirai right before he presented Worst
Comeback who the winner was so he wouldn't look like a fool on stage when it came time to announce it and he didn't know. sealioness told Goliath right before he went on stage who the winner of his category was, as I told evilive right before he went on stage who the winner of his category was. That is the way I did things, but I would not tell anyone early enough for them to change votes, and I watched the polls to make sure they didn't try it anyway. I closed the polls as soon as the information was leaked. The only one time I told the information and allowed for a lot of time before presentation was for Best Couple. Sapphira was supposed to present that award right away, but suddenly had to leave. The next night I saw that the tie had
changes ways and wasn't a tie anymore by one vote. I knew it was
altered and I changed my vote to make it a tie again. Is that cheating? If so, I'm sorry. Straight away I found a vampire willing
to present on short notice and the poll was closed. Once, when I saw
my clan had a chance for winning Clan of the Year, I campaigned a
littler more vigoriously. I sent out mass messages to all of my clan
members that they had better vote or I would be sad. I guess maybe
that is cheating, though I never told them the poll numbers. I used
my information as motivation to try harder.

2) Many vampires here tonight lost by only one or two votes, many
vampires tied yet did not win. The numbers were close most of the
time, save for categories like Ghost with the Most and Best Robbery
where the winners were almost a given.

3) Obsidian deserved the award for RBC's Brightest Star. How dare you take away her moment of glory with your bad attitude. You wanna make fun of me? You wanna pour beer on me? You wanna tell me I'm a cheater...fine. Just don't mess with my guests, I take that
personally. *marks Cap with another X*

4) Cap, you have stated that Vaelen doesn't know me because he said I had no motives. Cap, you do not know me. I had started to actually become friends with you because of this awards show. I thought foolishly that we actually were friends until you started yelling at me the other night for voting you with low numbers in your polls. You say my polls aren't fair? At least I don't reveal idenities to others. At least I don't yell at folks for the way they voted if I don't like it. I never ONCE denied a nomination even if I didn't like the vampire. I even had help picking the Top 5 for tied nominations to make sure I didn't hold to my own biases when picking the contenders. I certainly didn't write those vampires back and say, "WHAT?!?! You voted for WHO!?!? How could you...what the hell were you thinking?!!?!" To me, that is not fair, as I told you, to which you got very mad at me and next thing I know are telling me MY polls aren't fair.

4) Yes, it is true this is not an open door shop technically speaking. Everyone must check in at the door. The thing is though, I let everyone in once they check in. I let you in, even with your bad
repuation for ruining things, I let Es Beacy in to do whatever he
wanted even though everyone knows we don't get along, I let anyone in that wanted to come. (save for 3 vampires previously banned) I cannot say, 'No there wasn't new members admitted at certain times', because I instructed my sherrifs to approve entry of vampires waiting at the door around the clock with no questions. Maybe that was a mistake, but I honestly can't defend myself or point a finger at myself.

5) I don't need this awards show to give my friends props, or to
announce my biases in the city, etc. I have a newspaper to take all
of that out on. You may read all of my biases from page to page, but
even then I try to keep it open minded and fit for all.

6) Cap, you stated I had done all of this conspircy work to gain the
embrace of the clan that turned their back on me. For your
information and other's, I left the Shadow Court and they infact
didn't want me to. Nemesis at one time, was sad to see me go. I left
because I had to for myself. A short while later the sudden change
frightened me, and I asked to be re-admitted, but before I heard the
results of a member meeting I desided my place was in Family of Es. There I stood, embraced by the vampires I would call family for many months. After some time I began to miss my sire and wished my bloodline could be reunited in one clan again. We went clan shopping together and desided The Santcuary of Immortal Enlightenment was the best damn clan in this city. We all love each other, we love our clan, and as far as I know my clan loves all of us. I think very fondly of the Shadow Court and am still friends with many of it's members including my clan leaders husband, sade. I will never be ashamed of that, but to say I did all of this just to impress them....that's silly. Everywhere I go I talk about how much I love my
clan, SIE. I annouce it from the roof tops and constantly try to let
others see the light of the enlightenment. You're just talking silly
talk now with all of that nonsense. If I wanted a big hug from the
Shadow Court I would just wear a shirt that reads, "I love to be
stabbed".

7) I would like to take this moment to say Thank You, Thank You,
Thank You to Kreacher, sealioness, and Vukodlac for all their help
and support. I tried to do this all on my own and in the end I couldn't. Thank you for jumping in and lifting me up again, making this a very successful night to spite the bitter ending. Thank you to my other Hosts, thank you to all of my presenters, congratulations to all the winners, and thank you to the rest of you for coming. No matter what, see ya next year!